Is it still a discipline relationship when one isn't getting disciplined?
I will have you know that I haven't been punished since way back in February. I've been on the brink: had stern glares addressed at me, and frowns, and threats. But I've been good enough, and Abel generous enough, that there hasn't been a punishment.
And you know what?
I'm perfectly happy to keep it this way.
Isn't real life so very peculiar? A hard-wired spanko is happy about having avoided spanking. But it must also explain something about the effect that a punishment has on me.
All pleasure that ticks in my mind during normal play is gone. Just gone. And when you take out the pleasure bit from pleasure-and-pain... there's only pain left, you know. Even if a punishment isn't actually a spanking, but some sort of a disciplinary gimmick, it still hurts in a bad way.
That's something that people who are not into r/l discipline often don't believe. And sometimes I find it hard to believe, too: here am I, about to be punished, and I'm not finding it hot. How come?
But it's true. At least for me, it is.
So here you go - I'm a good girl for now, and I'm glad about it.
